Dear Rewriting Readers,
Last night, I hit the wall. I was exhausted, overwhelmed, and done. I worked from morning till night, unpacking moving boxes. I was like a rat on a wheel… going and going with no end in sight. I was on autopilot… doing and doing with no end in sight. And I felt it. My body ached. But I ignored the signs and… kept pushing and pushing with no end in sight. I could have stopped. I could have waited until the next day. But my task master mindset would have no part of it. Get it done so you don’t have more to do tomorrow. Huh! What a lie because there is always more to do tomorrow. I bought into the lie and ignored my guidance system of “how I felt” in this moment.
But then I expressed it by complaining. I put the bait on the hook, and my husband took a bite of the bait. I complained that I am sick of constantly working hard, suffering, struggling. And he commented that I didn’t sign up for the easy trail in life. I replied, “I am changing it. Life is meant to be enjoyed.” He advocated, “You are on a spiritual path of growth and it involves struggle and suffering. You are getting pushed into some better. Yes, it feels uncomfortable now, but it will not always feel like this. Tomorrow is a new day. Right now, you are being stretched.” I chimed, “I am sick of being stretched. How much more of my life do I need to lay down?” He walked out the room.
And guess what I did? I went back to work. Back to the pattern of struggle and suffering when really I could have taken a magnesium salt bath.
Later in the evening, Pierre went to put Lucas to bed, but he left a love note on my bedroom pillow. The message read:
The past is nothing more than a story we repeat to ourselves – and allowing ourselves to understand this is an incredibly liberating notion. Re-frame your experience, or journal them out until you’re able to come to a new understanding of why things happened the way they did. Learn to pinpoint the opportunities for growth within the destruction of your past – and then move forward with those opportunities close to your heart.
Compassion is liberating. Allowing is easy. Understanding is beautiful. And opportunities for growth is true wisdom.
Are you moving forward with those opportunities close to your heart?
Are you rewriting your story?